A Not So Good Day's Blah

My day is just not doing so well. The distance that separates us is just making me crazy. The days of waiting for a possible job is boring the hell out of me. At night, I sleep with lost thoughts in my head. Just like now, I am about to go to bed feeling all perplexed...

Going The Distance

So a dozen days had gone since I left Manila and not a single day passed by that I did not wish I could have taken several people with me. Actually, just a single person to have taken with me would have sufficed. It would definitely make the brown edges of the grass wither away and the grass would be the greenest on this side of the planet.

I missed him and watching this Drew-Justin movie made it a lot worse because it tackled what I was fearing to face these past 12 days - a long distance relationship and how to survive such conflict. In the movie, they showed the struggle the couple went through because of the miles that separated them. Drew lived in Frisco while Justin was in New York. So I sat there thinking, "if it is tough with only 3 hours of difference in timezone, I can only imagine how it would be with an enormous 16 hour difference!"

There were moments when I could relate so much with the characters that I had to remind myself that it was fiction and not my life, not our story. I thought I'd cry at some point but I didn't. Perhaps because I was just too embarrassed or because deep inside me, I was confident that like the couple in the movie, we would also be happy. And though I had always known that it would never be easy or that it would never get easier, I already prepared myself for moments when I would envy happy couples walking by or for birthdays or Christmases that he would not be by my side. I guessed going the distance really would take a lot of trust, strength and love between two people - something that I did not have to guess we have.

blah blah blah

And so what do you do if your boyfriend's son sends you a message in fb chat saying "cguro kaw babae ng papa ko no? gago ka!"? I don't know the answer but I sure know how it feels. The boy is only 10 years old and he does not have any idea who he is talking to since he sends the message to his father's fb account. I am hurt and angry. I am so tempted to tell him to go back to his mother so that she can teach him some manners. But it is just not logical to do that. Not to a 10 year old. Especially when he is like that because his mother clearly does not have the capability to be responsible for him.

Anyway, I need to crash.

Carrie-d Away

And so the critics were wrong. I was not really anticipating the showing of this movie except for the part that I would be hanging out with my best girls. The reviews were all saying how bad the movie was and what a waste of money it would be for moviegoers who were just waiting for the SATC2 release.

It was true that the sequel was not as serious as the first one but it did not mean, it was not equally good. We were laughing all through out the movie and maybe it was because we, the girls and I, were just appreciative of every littlest thing there was, but the fact that I could hear the audience laughing with us was just proof that we were all carried away by the movie.

One more good thing about it was the fact that the girls were still consistent with their characters. Carrie was still the fashionista writer, Charlotte was still the conservative mommy and Samantha, the feisty, naughty and young looking sex-addict. Sorry for the lack of a better term. The only one who kind of differed was Miranda. Yes, she was still strong and independent but this movie also showed her fun and mommy-fied side.

After the movie, we had coffee to catch up with our lives and I was just so thankful for these girls who remained my best friends for 14 long years. We may have had big changes in our lives but our roots were still the same. They were the same roots we had when we first met in an old classroom in UP Diliman in 1996. As I mentioned to one of them last night, we did not need more friends in our lives, what was important in life would be having quality friends - ones who'd be there until you would be needing canes to walk. I was blessed to have that kind.

So anyway, enough of my sentimental blah and for those who haven't watched the movie yet, it is time for you to get Carrie-d away. :)

The Rain and The Blues

So what do you do on a rainy afternoon with no good show on TV and your dvd player is busted? I am just so bored. I miss Reiszn so much that I want to brave the rain, jump on a bus to Pacita and just be with my baby. :(

Not Like The Movies

This is a really good song. Sometimes, we so much want to believe in happy endings but in the end, reality sets in and we just wake up from our sleeping beauty slumber just to realize that no fairy tale exists. At least not in this world...

I'm Your Average Dreamer
I'm a True Escapist
Always Expecting a Happy Ending...
Maybe I've been watching
Too many movies
Maybe I Should Grow Up
And Stop Pretending
When I saw your face though
Everything was slow-mo
And I started wondering why...

CHORUS:
Why Can't it be
Just a pathway full of roses
Leading to a sunset view
With the one you've always dream of waits
Why Can't it be
It was like a movie scene the way I fell for you
Only you, didn't fall
Now it's not like the movies at all
Woo... Oh... Ohhh...

Should I kept my heart shut?
Should I've been more patient?
Should I kept an eye on my addiction?
What was I expecting?
Did I have a vision of a scene, that only lives in fiction
Now I know that you are not
Gonna be my co-star
And I start to wonder why...

CHORUS:
Why Can't it be
Just a pathway full of roses
Leading to a sunset view
With the one you've always dream of waits
Why Can't it be
It was like a movie scene the way I fell for you
Only you, didn't fall
Now it's not like the movies at all...
Just a pathway full of roses
Leading to a sunset view
With the one you've always dream of waits
Why Can't it be
It was like a movie scene the way I fell for you
Only you, didn't fall
Now it's not like the movies at all
Woo... Oh... Ohh...

Nightmare at Elm Street

I watched this movie last night with my team and it was kinda fun. I say kinda because the company I was with was fun but the movie, apart from the few suspense parts and twist, was such a cliche. It was like a modernized freddie krueger. The only good part was that the nightmares were finally given a reason. We finally discovered the man behind the the melted skin and blade-like claws. But as I have said, that was all it. The ending was the same and justice was still not served.